I was going to give up blogging for good, as i was starting to think that it was a blardy big waste of time, but i think i need to start blogging, as i justcan't keep all these emotions bottled up inside.
Once upon a time, in A-Levels, I performed the song "I'll be missing you" by P.Diddy, which was written in tribute by P.Diddy for the Notorious B.I.G, at that point of time, although the song was a very meaningful song, it held little meaning to me, as never have i lost anyone important. Well, that has changed now and the lyrics now hold a very significant meaning to me.
Dear Nick,
Our friendship was one of a kind, it was one of the purest of friendships, and it was one of strongest. The three of us were always together, and through good and bad, and it was during the bad times, where our friendship became even stronger.
Remember the times we would go and watch movies cos Ian's mom got us free vouchers, and the times we would lepak at ur Western food shop (may it be Subang, Cheras or SS3), and the times we would play foosball and argue who's the best amongst us? We did spend a good half of our lives in Club 7, and then racks, and that pub in Klang, but sadly we never did play togehter at Asia Cafe did we?
Remember in form 5? We played hockey for the school and kicked DJ in the ass? Remember that goal, that was a clean goal but somehow came through the netting and we played like nothing happened? We wouldn't have reached the semi's if it wasn't for you. Your heroics in goal kept us in more times than any of us can remember.
You know, it was not too long ago, we were sitting down and BBQ-ing (for the older generation), having a few beers, and talking about how our kids were gonna BBQ for us, when we got old. Well, doubt that will happen anymore. And i don't think we will ever be able to have anymore of your "special sauce" and laugh about that crazy girl at Crystal's party who "loves" you, and most important of all we won't have your company anymore.
What happened to the promise of the three of us ALWAYS being together? You were supposed to always be around to look out for us!!! Now who is going to do that? It was a promise!!! We were supposed to drink together when we got back, you said you'll WAIT!!! Why didn't you? Now who's going to partner Ian when we play foos? and who's gonna be our third musketeer?
It's gonna be different without you. You were always there for us and we were always there for you and it was the greatest times of our live. My only regret is I couldn't be there for you on that day. If only you gave me a call, i promise you I would have been back. Why didn't you at least call?
When Renee called me with such urgency, i knew something was wrong, however, you were the least of my concerns, do you know why? Cos i knew you would always pull through, that you'd be okay. But not this time. When renee started her sentence with Nick, i was waiting for mom or dad or something to come next. Not is dead! Do you know the state of shock i was in?
Anyways, what's done is done, and as corny as it sounds, i wish this was all a dream, a nightmare that i could wake up from but i don't think it is. All i can say is R.I.P. and till we meet again.
Brothers Forever,
Niki Poon